Oh my, next weekend I am free to be me. Kids are going with EX and his family and I will be home alone for a few days. Oh my, what to do? What to do?
Oh heck, I’ll probably end up doing nothing like the last time. But wait, I have new jeans! Remember yesterday’s post? Rocking fun flattering (ok flattering for me) jeans – who can I call? Flipping through the contacts list, I see friends. But here’s the problem. Most of them are married and a Saturday night is for married couples. Grrr…ok, let me see if any of the single girls are around. Maybe we could go to dinner, get a drink, people watch or maybe even be watched by some other people – you know – those of the male persuasion!
I don’t know why I’m being so silly today. It’s been awhile since I’ve laughed and I’ve been reading some really funny 50ish blogs these past few days. I feel like I’m not alone finally. All this silliness to get out there and date and to be free to date because I’m divorced. And getting those questions from everyone I meet who knew me before the divorce. You know, those concerned ‘friends’ who ask, leering slightly, “Are you dating? Did you find someone special?” I want to gag. I want to say no, but I’ve had lots of fun sex since I’ve been divorced! But nobody’s rung my bell, so I’ve let them all off the hook after one date.
Oh the things I want to say to shock them. But my town is little and word spreads quickly and those that are asking are gossip mongers and they’d not get the sarcasm nor that I was KIDDING. They’d probably run in me in the rumor mill at full blast! LOL
So quietly, I’ll reach out to friends whom I know I can trust to see what they are doing next weekend. At least it will give me something to look forward to in the meantime. A little fantasy about getting out to dinner with friends and being me for a bit and not Mom as in – Mom, can you get me this? Mom, I’m hungry. Or the dreaded worrying about my kids when they are out with friends. That’ll all be on my EX next weekend!
What do you do when you don’t have your kids at the house?