Interesting Movie Message

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The other night, while flipping through mindless TV channels, I came upon a movie which normally I wouldn’t have watched, but the title intrigued me.  It was called The Secret Sex Life of a Single Mom.  The description was:   A divorced woman finds sexual liberation through online dating.  Hmmm I thought.  Kids are asleep and what an interesting movie description, especially as you know I’ve been thinking of dating again.  And ahem, just to make things clear, I’m not thinking of the sex part yet.  Not quite yet.  Even the thought of kissing another man is full of emotions including fear, excitement and longing.

Anyway, I watched the movie which wasn’t what I expected it to be.  I won’t ruin it for you in case you want to watch it.  But what I will say, was that even though the journey she took was not one I would have, the final result of her healing herself was what struck me.  Because there were similarities for me in her marriage.  A husband who traveled and worked long hours.  Being a single mom in a marriage because of his schedule.  The dynamic between the couple as she allowed him the power in the relationship.  Those parts hit very close to home and I felt as if I was watching something that would heal me as well.  And it did because even though the manner in which she healed isn’t something I would have chosen for myself, the result was that she became stronger and more self-assured in all parts of her life.  And that’s the missing piece that I needed to help myself to heal as well.

I gave away my power in order to keep peace in my marriage.  The convoluted pattern we established after many years was detrimental to both of us and yet we seemed powerless to change it, even though both of us were unhappy in the end.  I didn’t begin as a powerless woman in the marriage.  It simply evolved over time as he was the breadwinner and I was the stay at home Mom.  Resentments on both sides increased as the years went by and we were no longer a team.  That’s the sad part.

Healing for me was to realize that now, as an officially single divorced Mom, I have the power to choose without repercussions from an absent spouse.  No longer am I bound by the fear of reprisal when I had to explain why I did something or why I didn’t do something.  It has been a journey of self-discovery for me and this movie was the icing on the cake as it made me remember who I am as a woman again and the power vested in me to choose with self-confidence what I want, when I want and how I want to live my life.

Sure, I’d like to find a partner as I’ve mentioned before, but I don’t feel that need as so many single women do.  I’m ok on my own to enjoy my life with my kids until I meet someone special.  Don’t get me wrong, in the meantime, sure, I’m looking, but I’m also concentrating on me.

Have you seen the movie?  What did you think of it?

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12 Responses to Interesting Movie Message

  1. tachiwi says:

    Loved the honesty of this post . I have to look for this movie .

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  2. The best online dating site I found was Mature Free and Singles which covers the ages of 40, 50′ 60’s and upwards 😳 I found my husband on that site 😉

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  3. richardjalba says:

    Although I can’t relate to you, I feel I can relate to the overworked husband. I’m sure all men in that position want to be a success. But success requires obsession. The need and understanding that success demands countless hours. Even if it’s at the detriment of everything else…

    But you are rising from your past situation and I hope you find who you’re looking for.

    Best wishes Janie.

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    • janieleeds says:

      Thanks Rich and I appreciate your relating to him and understanding. Honestly. I wish that we had been able to work together more as a team because that was the part that fell away after time. Yes, you are right that success requires obsession, sometimes to the detriment of other things. I imagine it’s hard to maintain that delicate balance between success and family. I don’t blame him. I just wished we could have made it work and had it all together.
      Thanks for the wishes Rich. They are much appreciated. P.S. I really do like your blog!

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      • richardjalba says:

        Thank you for your understanding. And thank you for the compliments. I’ve been enjoying your posts as well.

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      • janieleeds says:

        I like hearing the guy’s point of view on your blog. You’ve had such an interesting life and you’re still here, trying to help others who need advice. Keep up the great work!

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      • richardjalba says:

        Thank you very much Janie. Not everyone will agree with my perspective and that’s okay. Experiences draw our perspectives and I only hope that people can find my advice when they ever need it.

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      • janieleeds says:

        You give good advice. You also shoot from the hip very directly at times which I enjoy reading. I agree that our perspectives can be hard for others to understand, but…I think in being open to reading/listening to someone else’s perspective, even if you don’t agree with them, only makes our world more connected.

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      • richardjalba says:

        I completely agree.

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