I Want To See You Be Brave

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This song touches me every time I hear it.  I could write you all the lyrics here because to me, they are all so meaningful in different ways during certain passages in my life with people.  But that would be redundant, so please just watch the video if you want. ♥

Authentically 50 means dropping the mask and being me without fear.  Being brave as the song beseeches.  Telling the truth and letting my words be anything but empty.  That’s the whole reason I write this blog.

It’s hard when you drop the mask of a perfect life.  On the outside, we had it all when I was married (or at least for years it looked like it).  But when the bloom was off the rose, the underbelly of dissent was evident.  It’s only now, years down the road that I can see clearly without too much angst that his leaving was the best thing that ever happened to me (besides birthing my kids).  It’s so strange to have been married for 20+ years to a man you don’t even recognize anymore – not physically, mentally nor emotionally.  I often wonder how that happened?

I wasn’t brave, I’ll admit.  Sure, I asked him what was going on, asked that we try harder to connect, but I think he was long gone in his head.  It is only years later when I look back in hindsight that I see this truth.  The one that I had blinded my own self to because I didn’t want to be brave.  Because I feared  it.

I remember once telling him that I didn’t like who I was with him.  It shocked me as it came out of my mouth and certainly threw him for a loop as well.  Even though my own mask on the outside was tilted, I threw it off right then and there, hoping for reciprocation and possible resolution.  I had loved his essence for years, but his mask stayed on, moving forward with more cement than I’d ever witnessed before that moment.  Our connection was lost.

Be brave.  Be authentically, wonderfully, unique you.  Don’t squash yourself for someone else.  It’s not worth it, even if you think you’re keeping the peace.  You’re not.  You’re just holding off the inevitable changes that are to come.

Say what you want to say and let the words fall out, honestly.  I want to see you be brave.

 

via Daily Prompt: Brave

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8 Responses to I Want To See You Be Brave

  1. TJ Fox says:

    “It’s not worth it, even if you think you’re keeping the peace. You’re not. You’re just holding off the inevitable changes that are to come.” THIS! It was hard to realize when I finally cut ties with my family how much happier we ALL were, not just me, with the results. Part of it was because I was happier and that spreading to everyone else, but a huge part for my kids was just not having the stress of being somewhere they didn’t feel comfortable, didn’t feel included. I beat myself up for a while for not doing it sooner, but I also realize that I just wasn’t ready. You cannot do anything before you are truly ready and have the outcome be as healthy. Sure, for a long time you don’t see it, but once you can step back and look at it from a bigger perspective, you can understand. Like so many things that are worth it, it is hard.

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  2. Sending virtual hugs 🤗

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  3. I enjoy this song. It brings out a few emotions in me. It’s on Spotify, and I only have about 100 songs on there. Good post. Hugs!!!

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