This is such a good song to sing in the car with the windows down, the breeze flowing through my hair and singing at the top of my lungs while driving down the highway so nobody really notices that I’m probably singing off key! LOL
After a really long heart to heart talk with my bestie the other night, who is also divorced, I had to take a long hard look at how I was holding onto wanting the EX to be involved with the kids. What my bestie gave me was the cold, hard truth and I had to really take that sour medicine and swallow it. It didn’t taste good going down for sure. But the healing that’s begun after a few days has felt really good. Finally, she got through to me and I’m grateful.
Because she kept telling me to let it go, to allow the kids to have their own relationship, whatever that may be, with their dad and for me to not interfere or try to make it easier or better for them. I have written often about my frustration and it was gobbling me up inside because I couldn’t make things better. I couldn’t get him to care as I wanted him to or to respond to them in a timely fashion or to be who they wanted him to be or quite frankly, who I wanted him to be with them. And it’s honestly none of my business now. I need to concentrate on my relationship with my kids only. His relationship is his business, not mine and who am I to think that I should continue to be the fixer in his life? I just need to allow them to make their own way together and leave it alone. It’s hard when you see your kids upset because he hasn’t responded. But I don’t think I was helping the situation by trying to fix it. I think I was only getting it messier and that wasn’t my intent at all.
I get it it that he’s not going to to respond to me. We’re divorced. Ok. But to disconnect so frequently with his kids? It’s been bothering me obviously. But it’s over.
I’m letting go! Or at least I’m trying really, really hard. Let’s see how this phase goes. I’ll be there to pick up the pieces of their hearts if need be and to help them heal. In the meantime, you can find me driving with the windows down singing….