So I had a really good weekend which I haven’t been able to say for awhile. I went to a friend’s house who lives on the beach and spent the night on Saturday night. We had dinner, drank wine, watched movies, laughed and talked and had a girl’s night in. It was so much fun! We bonded over our divorces which helped and because she smokes too, there was none of that guilt when you’re with someone else doesn’t.
But on Sunday afternoon, the thought came to me to quit Monday so here I am – I’ve quit again but this time, I feel differently. Last time, I felt like I was guilty and had to do it because others felt I should. This time, I feel like I want to detox my life.
So I had my ‘last’ one Sunday night along with a glass of wine while talking on the phone with a friend. I threw out the empty pack and went to bed. Resigned to stay smoke free. So, yesterday morning, I just kept myself busy in the house so that I didn’t go outside like I usually do with my coffee in the early morning. I made it through the whole day without feeling the urge to light up. So I know this time is different because all of the other times, I was aching to smoke. What’s the difference this time? Deep inside, it resonated with me to quit and I wasn’t doing it for someone else. I am doing it for me!
So far, I am quitting cold turkey, but I did invest in those patches in case I need them. So far, no patch. Just doing it old school – no more smoking. End of story.
Wish me luck! Today’s Day 2 and still smoke free without urge. So bizarre! But I’m excited! I hope you have a great day! Thanks for reading.