I Quit Again

So I had a really good weekend which I haven’t been able to say for awhile.  I went to a friend’s house who lives on the beach and spent the night on Saturday night.  We had dinner, drank wine, watched movies, laughed and talked and had a girl’s night in.  It was so much fun!  We bonded over our divorces which helped and because she smokes too, there was none of that guilt when you’re with someone else doesn’t.

But on Sunday afternoon, the thought came to me to quit Monday so here I am – I’ve quit again but this time, I feel differently.  Last time, I felt like I was guilty and had to do it because others felt I should.  This time, I feel like I want to detox my life.

So I had my ‘last’ one Sunday night along with a glass of wine while talking on the phone with a friend.  I threw out the empty pack and went to bed.  Resigned to stay smoke free.  So, yesterday morning, I just kept myself busy in the house so that I didn’t go outside like I usually do with my coffee in the early morning.  I made it through the whole day without feeling the urge to light up.  So I know this time is different because all of the other times, I was aching to smoke.  What’s the difference this time?  Deep inside, it resonated with me to quit and I wasn’t doing it for someone else.  I am doing it for me!

So far, I am quitting cold turkey, but I did invest in those patches in case I need them.  So far, no patch.  Just doing it old school – no more smoking.  End of story.

Wish me luck!  Today’s Day 2 and still smoke free without urge.  So bizarre!  But I’m excited!  I hope you have a great day!  Thanks for reading.


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13 Responses to I Quit Again

  1. E says:

    You have been through so much, quitting smoking is nothing compared to all!
    You can so do it and you do it for you!

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  2. SDC says:

    It really just comes down to ‘deciding’. I sort of feel like all the medications in the world won’t help if you’re just not ready ☹ I started again when my brother passed BUT I’d been off of them for a year with no trouble after smoking most of my life. It’s already less than it was in January and I can’t give myself too much grief for it because…I don’t know, I needed to do something. Soon it will be a distant memory again once I’m feeling better. Keep up the good work!

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  3. Mischenko says:

    Congrats on the decision, Janie! I know you can do it. ❤


  4. LA says:

    Good luck!


  5. bone&silver says:

    That’s so awesome, good on you! My Dad smoked for over 30 years, then just stopped. He said 20 years later he still felt like a ciggie sometimes (usually with a glass of red at the end of a long hard day), but just practised resisting till the urge passed. It will pass, you just gotta learn that, and trust it. Good luck! x


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