Uncompromising Doesn’t Mean B*tch

I compromised my whole life.  I put myself last on the list for ages, in many situations.  I did what I felt was right by putting others first.  I lost sight of myself because of my decisions.  While I won’t lament that I did what I did, I’m in a new place now.  I feel stronger and when I don’t feel something resonate with me, I will be uncompromising.  Not in a push – pull sort of way, but in a clear-eyed way of following my heart.

I think I’m growing up finally! LOL

It’s Day 4 by the way and no slip ups – still smoke free!  It’s amazing to me as I KNOW it wasn’t this easy the last few times I tried to quit.  It was a battle of wills between me and the cigarette which tempted me all day long.  This time, it’s so much different that I feel like there’s some spiritual help here.  Could it be?

I’m finding my eyes are more sparkly – perhaps there’s a bit of hope dancing in them?  I think that the guilt of smoking and being so smelly and ashamed is lifting.  I went to the dentist yesterday and vowed to start whitening my teeth – here I come Crest White Strips!  Has anyone used them with success?  Please let me know!

I have this strong desire to start doing things for me.  I figure with the money I’m saving from my cig habit, I will have enough to do a few things for me – like whiten my teeth, get some new makeup that makes me feel good, etc.  Tomorrow I’m getting my hair done and scheduled a manicure.  I can’t tell you the last time I indulged in a manicure!  That will be a treat for me! 🙂

I haven’t been back to CrossFit though, which is bad.  But I will start again next week.  I just wasn’t feeling it this week.  I know, excuses, excuses…but one thing at a time!  And this new milestone is huge!

Hey, I just saw it’s International Women’s Day!  Congrats to all the women out there!  We rock!  (Did I just hear some of you guys snicker?  Isn’t there an International Men’s Day too?  Why not?)

UPDATE:  I found out that International Men’s Day is November 19th this year!

 

 

 

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15 Responses to Uncompromising Doesn’t Mean B*tch

  1. Congrats to you, too! 4 days is awesome. Happy International Women’s Day! 🙂

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  2. The only way is up ☝️

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  3. LA says:

    Good for you!

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  4. E says:

    Time is not right yet for an International Men’s Day… when that day comes, we will know as it means that we have reached some sort of equality.

    Keep it up…any exercise is good, even in the home!
    E

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  5. Good lord, I hope there isn’t an international men’s day. We hog the spotlight enough already. There oughtta be a whole International Women’s MONTH if there isn’t already.

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