I compromised my whole life. I put myself last on the list for ages, in many situations. I did what I felt was right by putting others first. I lost sight of myself because of my decisions. While I won’t lament that I did what I did, I’m in a new place now. I feel stronger and when I don’t feel something resonate with me, I will be uncompromising. Not in a push – pull sort of way, but in a clear-eyed way of following my heart.
I think I’m growing up finally! LOL
It’s Day 4 by the way and no slip ups – still smoke free! It’s amazing to me as I KNOW it wasn’t this easy the last few times I tried to quit. It was a battle of wills between me and the cigarette which tempted me all day long. This time, it’s so much different that I feel like there’s some spiritual help here. Could it be?
I’m finding my eyes are more sparkly – perhaps there’s a bit of hope dancing in them? I think that the guilt of smoking and being so smelly and ashamed is lifting. I went to the dentist yesterday and vowed to start whitening my teeth – here I come Crest White Strips! Has anyone used them with success? Please let me know!
I have this strong desire to start doing things for me. I figure with the money I’m saving from my cig habit, I will have enough to do a few things for me – like whiten my teeth, get some new makeup that makes me feel good, etc. Tomorrow I’m getting my hair done and scheduled a manicure. I can’t tell you the last time I indulged in a manicure! That will be a treat for me! 🙂
I haven’t been back to CrossFit though, which is bad. But I will start again next week. I just wasn’t feeling it this week. I know, excuses, excuses…but one thing at a time! And this new milestone is huge!
Hey, I just saw it’s International Women’s Day! Congrats to all the women out there! We rock! (Did I just hear some of you guys snicker? Isn’t there an International Men’s Day too? Why not?)
UPDATE: I found out that International Men’s Day is November 19th this year!