Quit Day 4

I didn’t plan on quitting.  I know you’re supposed to do that countdown thing, but I woke up on Friday morning with the mother of all head colds and so I haven’t been able to even think about smoking.  I’ve been so miserable vacillating between fevers, chills and all out sleeping more than actually being awake.  Kids were even concerned as I was down for the count.

Yesterday Day 3 I finally showered because I had a little strength, but that was exhausting honestly.  Today’s Day 4 and I’m still a little feverish so I may be calling the MD to see if I need antibiotics.  I don’t like to take meds so I’ve been putting it off.

But the good news is that this is like a dream come true for me.  At least that’s how I’m viewing it for now.  Sure, I’ve been horribly miserable, but it’s like killing two birds with one stone.  Miserable with cold and fever and miserable from nicotine withdrawal which is mixed up in that batch of misery, but because they’re mixed up together, I’m just all out miserable for a ton of reasons.  Oh and did I mention that I’ve dropped weight because I’ve been sweating out the toxins along with that fever?  Win – Win!

What’s different about this quitting time?  I am not feeling deprived because I can’t smoke.  I have no desire to try to inhale smoke into these lungs that are already hurting and coughing with the cold.  I haven’t the strength to even think about hauling myself outside to the patio for a smoke.  It’s the best way honestly.  I’m actually smiling because I’m sick as a dog.  Can you even imagine? LOL  I am truly looking on the bright side!

So Day 4 on the quit smoking scale means all the nicotine has left my body.  Day 5 and beyond, cravings should be down to only 3 major cues a day (because I’ve been sick, there have been no cues) so that’s good!

I’ve been wanting to quit as you’ve read here before in the blog.  It’s time, passed time.  I’m hoping that this is the opening of my new chapter – releasing bad habits and embracing a new life.  I’ve suffered enough through the ordeal of divorce.  I want to be at peace and to find happiness.  Smoking held me back from a lot of things and while I thought it gave me peace, it also gave me a ton more stress and showers to keep people from smelling my shameful secret.

So that’s my latest update.  How are you doing?

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21 Responses to Quit Day 4

  1. LA says:

    Keep going!

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  2. Congrats and hope you feel better quickly!

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  3. Sandy says:

    You can do this. You’re on a great path.

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  4. Congratulations on day 4. I know the withdrawals. I quit when I went on my mission trip. Stress of American life and the rat race brought the smoking back within two weeks.

    You can do it!

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  5. I wondered where you were. Get well soon Janie, loving your every cloud has a silver lining attitude 🌹

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  6. SDC says:

    I’m so glad you talk about this (but not that you’re sick!) because honestly I’ve not seen anyone else who does. And I can always relate!

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    • janieleeds says:

      Thanks Sam. I feel like I’m going out there and revealing my worst darkest secret. It’s a shameful secret because of the way people view smoking. It’s not as if it’s illegal because it is legal to smoke cigarettes. But because of the health ramifications everyone is so silent about it. I don’t want to be silent. I want to be healthy.

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      • SDC says:

        I definitely feel like a troll when I *do* smoke but compared to where I was 2 years ago I’m doing great. I love seeing you work through this so openly, as strange as that may sound. You got this!

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      • janieleeds says:

        Thanks Sam. I appreciate your understanding and your support. You know I’ve got your back as well. I just think that it helps when we talk about it. I felt like I troll when I did too. That sums it up really well. I am a work in progress and like you, I am way better than I was two years ago.

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      • SDC says:

        Absolutely!! 🤗🤗🤗

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    • janieleeds says:

      Thanks Sam. It means a lot to me.

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