I didn’t plan on quitting. I know you’re supposed to do that countdown thing, but I woke up on Friday morning with the mother of all head colds and so I haven’t been able to even think about smoking. I’ve been so miserable vacillating between fevers, chills and all out sleeping more than actually being awake. Kids were even concerned as I was down for the count.
Yesterday Day 3 I finally showered because I had a little strength, but that was exhausting honestly. Today’s Day 4 and I’m still a little feverish so I may be calling the MD to see if I need antibiotics. I don’t like to take meds so I’ve been putting it off.
But the good news is that this is like a dream come true for me. At least that’s how I’m viewing it for now. Sure, I’ve been horribly miserable, but it’s like killing two birds with one stone. Miserable with cold and fever and miserable from nicotine withdrawal which is mixed up in that batch of misery, but because they’re mixed up together, I’m just all out miserable for a ton of reasons. Oh and did I mention that I’ve dropped weight because I’ve been sweating out the toxins along with that fever? Win – Win!
What’s different about this quitting time? I am not feeling deprived because I can’t smoke. I have no desire to try to inhale smoke into these lungs that are already hurting and coughing with the cold. I haven’t the strength to even think about hauling myself outside to the patio for a smoke. It’s the best way honestly. I’m actually smiling because I’m sick as a dog. Can you even imagine? LOL I am truly looking on the bright side!
So Day 4 on the quit smoking scale means all the nicotine has left my body. Day 5 and beyond, cravings should be down to only 3 major cues a day (because I’ve been sick, there have been no cues) so that’s good!
I’ve been wanting to quit as you’ve read here before in the blog. It’s time, passed time. I’m hoping that this is the opening of my new chapter – releasing bad habits and embracing a new life. I’ve suffered enough through the ordeal of divorce. I want to be at peace and to find happiness. Smoking held me back from a lot of things and while I thought it gave me peace, it also gave me a ton more stress and showers to keep people from smelling my shameful secret.
So that’s my latest update. How are you doing?