Goodnight 2018

Well, it’s been a bumpy ride this year and when I put my head on the pillow tonight, I’ll be happily saying goodnight to 2018.  What I know is that I did my best through the hard lessons and even if I made a few mistakes along the way, they were never intentional.  They were simply mistakes that meant no harm.

I let go of my former husband and our story.  I let go of his toxic family.  I let go of those who I walked on eggshells around because life’s too short.  My former husband is still here and I wish him healing through his cancer.  Whatever his lessons may be, they are his and not mine.  My kids are still with me.  We are even stronger than we were a year ago and closer than ever.  They walk the line between their parents unfortunately, but they know they are loved and supported.  I would change it if I could, but they have complete freedom to be with their dad and they don’t choose to do that often.  While that breaks my heart for them and for him, it’s not my lesson to experience.

I can’t wait to wake up to a brand new year filled with possibility.  I want to embrace myself this year.  And stop being sorry for things I can’t control.  I want to do what makes me happy more often without worry about what people think of me.

I want to continue to be more authentically Janie…and I wish that you are more authentically you in 2019 as well!

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16 Responses to Goodnight 2018

  1. Happy New Year’s to you. All the best in 2019. 🙂

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  2. Happy New Year!!! Here’s to a happy and healthy 2019!

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  3. madonna cruz says:

    Hi happy new year. Do you remember me? Until now i cant write a blog and i think its not for me but thank you for encouraging me to write. Have a blessed day to you.

    On Wed, Jan 2, 2019, 3:56 AM Authentically 50 ~ Embracing Life’s Changes janieleeds posted: “Well, it’s been a bumpy ride this year and when I put > my head on the pillow tonight, I’ll be happily saying goodnight to 2018. > What I know is that I did my best through the hard lessons and even if I > made a few mistakes along the way, they were never int” >

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    • janieleeds says:

      And a blessed day to you too. Perhaps there will be a time when you feel more like blogging but I am proud of you for knowing how you feel and respecting that part of you! Stay in touch…and yes, I remember you! 🙂 Happy 2019!

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  4. What a year you have all had! Life as you know is too short to hold on to grudges and even some memories 😬 I wish you and ALL your family health and happiness in 2019 🥳🌹😉

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