It’s a new year filled with anticipation for what’s in store. I’m not one for resolutions, having kept few of them in the past. I prefer to go with the flow. So this year, I am concentrating on keeping my floaties on (those arm bands that kids wear in the water) so that I don’t drown no matter what happens.
Going with the flow doesn’t mean I’m aimlessly predicting 2019. Nope, far from it. But what I am choosing is how to deal with the ups and downs in the year ahead. I’m not drowning. And I will keep those whom I love afloat as well.
My floaties represent a lot to me this year. Protection, authenticity, courage, positivity, love, being centered, going with the flow, and rising above all the debris that swirls underneath the surface.
That’s my plan. Rise above. I can only control me (and my kids to a certain extent). But everyone else is on their own path and I’m not in charge anymore. I was raised to be responsible for everyone and everything, but now that I’m divorced and over 50, I’ve chosen to decrease my responsibility list to my kids and to me. I am healing from the co-dependence and narcissistic abuse that I endured in my past. And it feels good!
It’s hard to stay hands off because my first instinct is to help others, but it’s not always received well. So, I’ve backed off with my former husband who’s suffering with a recent late stage diagnosis of cancer and his crazy family. I’ve said my peace, offered help and now I allow whatever is to happen to happen. This is a huge step for me in letting go and I’m not finding it easy.
However, I’m finding that keeping the image of wearing floaties helps a great deal. I imagine myself as a young girl, carefree in the ocean without fear because I have my floaties to protect me. Most importantly, in this very moment, I have peace.
So if you’re stumbling into 2019, take heart. These are uncertain times for sure. We can’t control anyone or anything except ourselves. Make the best of your life by finding who you are, authentically being yourself and feeling gratitude for the freedom that each experience brings with every choice you make in your life!