Being a single parent, ex-wife of a narcissist who’s not paying what’s legally owed me and raising two college kids with anxiety on my own is hard. My story isn’t unusual, but sometimes it feels harder to deal with than normal. And today’s one of those days.
I feel teary. I have the Monday Blues. I have so much paperwork and I feel like I’m drowning in debt. I have zero energy to deal with all the issues that emails and the post office are bringing me today. I just want to run away and hide under the covers. I’m not even answering the phone, unless it’s my divorce lawyer who’s evading me because I need answers that he probably doesn’t have.
My kids are both home which is great! But there’s a big storm brewing with their dad who’s battling cancer and his family (particularly his narcissist overbearing mother) and so my kids are dealing with hurts that I can’t fix. I hate when my kids are suffering. And as much as I appreciate they trust in me enough to share what’s going on, I feel like I’m powerless to do more than listen and advise as best I can. And I hate that feeling of not being able to fix things for them since they don’t deserve this narcissistic abuse. Nobody does.
I read that astrologically there’s Mercury Retrograde and some Pisces moon thing going on. Maybe that’s what’s bringing me down along with all the stressors. I’m just sad today. The world’s on my shoulders and I need a miracle. Anyone have a spare to lend me today?