I wrote this yesterday and at the end, will give the follow up…Have you ever felt this way?
It’s Saturday during Christmas season. I have been invited to a party with a friend and her husband (as a third wheel, but kindly invited). I won’t know anyone at the party, but I am to meet my friend and her husband there. My friend is really kind and she said she’d wait for me so we can go into the party together which is thoughtful.
But do I stay home or do I go?
I have a new fair isle sweater which is festive but casual, which is appropriate for the party. But do I feel like it? I am not sure. It’s hard when you’re going in cold, but then again, perhaps I’ll meet some nice people and I’ll get to spend some time with my friend and her husband.
It’s times like these that I miss being married and going places with a partner. I don’t mind going out for dinner with girlfriends. I don’t normally get invited out to dinner with other couples because it’s awkward, for them and for me I guess. So my social life is not really active.
I know that I should probably go and make the effort. I’m sure you’re thinking, Hey, you never know who you might meet or who will say that they know a nice man…and blah blah blah…believe me. I’ve been thinking that too, but gosh, I’ve been thinking that every time I go someplace out of my comfort zone and nothing happens.
Take a chance my brain said. You don’t have anything else scheduled so go, my heart insisted. So I did…because I still have hope.
I pulled out all the stops, even shaving my legs though there was no need because I was wearing velvet pants. I put on my makeup with care, styled my hair and put on a blouse instead of the sweater because it was a warmish night. And I went.
Was it spectacular? No. Was it nice? Yes. Was I wishing after 2 hours that I could go home because I was bored? Yes. Lucky for me, my friend and her husband had to get home early so I wasn’t there late which was good.
Would I do it again? No. Am I glad I went? Yes.
And so it continues…the holidays can be a festive time, but also a lonely one. How are you doing these days?