Well, it’s January 3rd and I guess 2020 has officially begun with people back to work and kids back to school. I’m still so messed up on what day it is since the holidays began. It just seems like a string of Saturdays and I had to look on my phone to see what day it actually was today! LOL Do you feel similarly?
I have a ton of paperwork to do for the start of the year that I’ve been postponing and procrastinating on. I just don’t wanna do it (cue whiny kid voice – lol!) but I’m gearing up to start as soon as I finish this post. Are you shaking your head and smiling? I am because I’d rather be writing than doing the mundane tasks that are needed that aren’t really mine to do, but they’ve fallen to be my responsibility. You know how that is, right? Anyway, enough of my whining…
I’ve been online dating again. Well, I had my profile up, but as always it got weird with these men who say the damnedest things while hidden behind a computer so I stopped using the site as much. I was only looking much of the time, but nobody really caught my eye so I guess that’s good. My subscription is up in a few weeks which I’m ready for at this time. I keep thinking that someone from my past and I will reconnect. I have felt that way from the start, well after I got over the heartbreak of the divorce and thought I’d like to be in a relationship with someone else eventually. So maybe this is all fodder and a waste of time. Or maybe it’s just a way to spend time before the man from my past and I cross paths. Either way, it’s been an experience that I’m not likely to repeat because the online dating scene isn’t fun to me.
I know a lot of bloggers (and friends) who seem to have relatively good (or even great) experiences with online dating so maybe it’s just me. It’s been a way to pass the time and ‘meet’ people all while staying home in my jammies, but feeling like I’m trying to date. Lately my kids have been asking when I’m going to find a boyfriend which is amusing. I guess because their dad has a girlfriend, they want me to have someone as well. And I’m all good with that! I’d like to find a nice man to spend time with and see what comes up. It’s just been hard to find someone that I like and connect with so far.
But I have hope for 2020 that it will all unfold the way it’s supposed to be. I’m going for a hypnotist session in the middle of January to quit smoking because the stress lately has me lighting up more than usual and I’m tired of it. I don’t even think I like it anymore but I can’t seem to quit on my own. There’s no carrot dangling before me to entice me to want to quit. Hopefully this will help me and I can be done.
I quit years ago with a hypnotist. Cold turkey. No suffering. It was AWESOME! So I’m hoping the mind can repeat the experience and I can be done for good. That will probably help with the dating scene as well because I’m a closet smoker. On my profile, I say I don’t smoke because I want to not be a smoker. Does that make sense? So I have already put up a barrier before the dating even begins.
Anyway, the work is calling me so I have to go. I hope you’re having a good day everyone! Smile! It’s 2020!