An Untold Story of Isolation

** Based on a true story, but a friend’s experience and not mine.

Before the lock-down he’d been acting funny.  And he was on his phone a lot with Linda.  But I knew Linda and I wasn’t that worried because she was married and they were friends.  But let me be honest.  I wondered.  I wondered why he was laughing as he texted her, but when I tried to nonchalantly ask, he’d tell me a joke she’d sent or a meme and I’d be pacified. Or at least I’d try to be.

Days before the lock-down was official, we’d just had sex and he went in to take a shower.  Sex was always ok with us and we had it about four times a week.  While I liked it, I could have probably had it less, but he needed it.  He always had.  “I’m a highly sexual being,” he used to tell me.  He liked to see me in lingerie and would buy me outfits sometimes.  He said it spiced things up and because I wanted to please him, I wore them.  They weren’t anything bad – just little peek-a-boo bras and panties.  Nothing perverse.

Anyway, he went to shower and as I was making up the bed, I heard a text beep and found his phone in the covers.  I picked it up and saw the message from Linda.  “Showering without you isn’t fun.”

The phone dropped from my hand onto the bed.  All at once I couldn’t breathe.  My worst fears were confirmed.  Otherwise why would she have sent that message?!

Tony was still in the shower.  I sat on the bed and tried to open his phone.  Fumbling to remember the code, it finally unlocked.  Immediately, I went to the message thread with Linda and began to scroll.

What I found was my worst nightmare.  Sexting, nude photos, and videos of stuff I couldn’t even click on to watch.  Peppered in between those were texts of I miss you‘s and all sorts of ideas for their next “playdate” as I assumed they were calling their trysts.

I felt the throw up come up into my mouth.  I was shaking uncontrollably.  I couldn’t even cry because I was so shocked.  How could I have been so naive?  How could I have believed him?  He lied to me for so long!

I heard the shower stop and my mind went blank.  I was sitting on the bed with his phone in front of me laying there open to the messages that I’d just skimmed in disbelief.  I was having a hard time breathing.  My chest was heaving as I was trying to catch my breath.

When he emerged from the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist, I felt rooted to the spot.  Unaware that I’d found out his secret, he walked over to our dresser and started pulling out drawers to find his underwear, t-shirt and jeans.  He didn’t even notice me and for the life of me, I didn’t know what to say.

He walked back into the bathroom to brush his teeth.  I heard the electric toothbrush whirring and when he spit, I knew he’d be returning to the bedroom.  Did I really want to confront him now?  My mind was going a mile a minute with what I’d just learned.  How the hell had this happened and what was I going to do about it?

 

 

 

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15 Responses to An Untold Story of Isolation

  1. The V Pub says:

    It seems that when your senses detect something, there’s probably a reason for it.

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  2. Sad, gut instinct is usually spot on. 😦

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  3. scr4pl80 says:

    Sadly, been there. It’s a tough one and you described the feeling perfectly.

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  4. petespringerauthor says:

    It doesn’t feel right to like your post. I ache for anyone who has gone through something like this. It must be awful to put your trust in someone and have that person throw it away so easily.

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  5. Dwight Hyde says:

    Big hugs, Janie. I can’t imagine having to face anything like that. I will always remember though the day my marriage ended. To this day over 5 years later, I still get a “sickness” within thinking about it and the loss.

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  6. Janie I’m confused about whether this is a true story or fiction. From the comments, I suspect it’s true. I’m so sorry. While I haven’t been through the same exact thing, I know the horrible sinking and numbness, the shock you describe. I know that feeling of being betrayed by someone you trusted. There are no words big enough for the losses and the pain behind this story. Sometimes paring something back to just one scene is a powerful way to tell a story.

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    • janieleeds says:

      It’s actually fiction but loosely based on truth if that makes sense. It didn’t happen to me personally, but to a good friend. I guess I was trying my hand at writing because we have been talking about the untold stories during this virus isolation.

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