Calgon Take Me Away

LOL! Do you remember that commercial from long ago? A bubble bath and quiet time and the woman in the commercial was happy? I need a bit more than a bubble bath to soothe me lately. How about you? Are you feeling stressed more than usual? Or am I the only one???

Because a bubble bath isn’t enough for me these days. Not even if I added a big ol’ glass of wine to the scenario. Nope. I’m raising the white flag of surrender. I’m overwhelmed. I’ve had enough of cranky people, political unrest, fear of getting Covid, cooking, cleaning, being a single parent and feeling alone, yet having everything on my shoulders and being responsible for it all.

I’m crying ‘UNCLE’! Isn’t that what we used to say when someone kept tickling us beyond what we could handle? I give up. I’m so tired every night. Mentally, physically, emotionally. But then when I finally crawl into my bed, it takes me awhile to fall asleep which is fine because I read a few pages from my kindle. But lately, I’ve been having crazy dreams – like strange ones that make no sense. I wake up in the middle of the night only to wonder where in the world am I and once I realize I’m safe in my bed, in my home with the kids upstairs asleep, I go back to sleep only to have another dream wake me up later. And on and on it goes.

It’s like being on one of those wild rides that make you dizzy and you’re begging the guy to stop it because you want to get off, but everyone else is on the ride so he won’t.

Am I the only one feeling this way?

I was talking with friends who are feeling similarly, but it doesn’t seem as if they are in as deep as me with wanting to bail on this adulting. Not that I want to check out completely, but I’d love a respite somehow.

I’d love someone else to take the wheel and drive while I just watch the world go by and listen to some good tunes with the wind in my hair taking all of my cares and woes away for awhile.

Doesn’t that sound wonderful?

Because being divorced, scrambling for financial stability and dealing with all the complications of Covid is difficult. Parenting hasn’t been too easy lately either which is annoying me and adding to my stress level.

How are you doing these days?

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23 Responses to Calgon Take Me Away

  1. Ainsobriety says:

    I have had times like that, where the weight of being a single parent suffocates me. Having to make all the decisions can cause exhaustion and resentment. This was not my plan for 2020.

    When I feel this way I try to ask myself, what can give? Can we have frozen pizza for dinner? Skip the dishes? Kraft dinner?

    Can I cancel plans and just veg out?

    What am I taking on that could be put down? Or that really isn’t my problem in the first place. I have a nice therapist who I see when I’m in that low.

    Most of the time I like being the sole decision maker. No one second guesses or argues. But it is tiring and different.

    Fall is a hard time. The days are getting darker and colder. I take 300 mg magnesium citrate before bed. It helps me fall and stay asleep.




    • janieleeds says:

      Hugs to you Anne. Thank you for sharing and for the tips! I actually have done many of them, especially when it comes to dinner at the end of a long day. And I do have a therapist who helps so that’s good too.

      I like being the sole decision maker. as well, but there are times where it would be nice to have someone be the back up.

      Normally I have no trouble sleeping so I think it’s just a phase. Good for you for using magnesium.

      Hugs to you too dear friend xo

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  2. scr4pl80 says:

    I know there are a lot of people feeling that way. Fortunately it hasn’t hit me that hard. Hang in there.


  3. The V Pub says:

    There’s a lot going on. I unplug once in a while and don’t watch the news, don’t go shopping and just chill. That helps me a lot.


  4. TJ Fox says:

    *Hugs* There is just so much going on and it is overwhelming right now. Especially the pieces you can’t feel like you can get any distance from, enough space to get a breath. I’ve noticed that my patience is very thin lately because of that. Getting out in the sun for a walk over the weekend helped with that quite a bit. Hopefully you can find some calm!


    • janieleeds says:

      Thanks TJ! I have been sitting outside when I can just to ‘be’ for a bit because I need to just relax before getting back into my work. It has helped immensely. Glad you’re walking in the sun as well! Peace be with you!

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  5. R. M. says:

    Calgon would be great – Japanese company “Kao” makes a great product called “Babu”. Its more like a mineral soak but it’s fragrant and great. Different from the typical epsom salt type soaks, turns the water green and has a strong fragrance. Very relaxing and best if the water is almost uncomfortably hot.


  6. LA says:

    We all feel a little wrecked right now…I get it


  7. petespringerauthor says:

    I’m usually pretty even-keeled and positive, but there have been times during the pandemic I’ve felt what you’re feeling. I realize I’ve got plenty of things to be thankful for, but I’ve got Covid-fatigue. We haven’t seen our son since February. He just went into quarantine for the second time in the last few months because he’s been around college students (players on the football team) who have been sick. We’d talked ourselves into finally going out to see him, and this happens. Can I scream yet?


    • janieleeds says:

      Yes you may scream Pete. I give you permission. I’m so sorry that you’ve not seen your son in so long. It’s been trying for us all to say the least. Thank goodness we are all still well though. We have to be grateful for the little things that end up being big things in the end. Stay healthy and safe.


  8. OmniRunner says:

    My kids are adults and I don’t have many of the worries you have.
    But I have the standard set that we all have: Covid, the economy, politics, people loosing the ability to be civil and communicate. Where the hell is all of this going to?
    On top of that little bundle, my mother died last week at 92. The last six months were tough, but she had a good life up until just about the end.
    I’m living on 4 hours a sleep each night and a pot of coffee each day.
    This has to get better.


    • janieleeds says:

      I’m so sad to hear that your Mom passed away last week. May she Rest In Peace and may you heal from your grief.
      I can’t say where this is all going to, but I do know that we have to do our best to be kind, to be understanding and to stay in an observer mode knowing that we are all struggling so as not to take it personally when people are cranky.
      I hope you can get better sleep and less coffee. Sending you a big hug. I understand.


  9. Hi Janie,
    You are most definitely not alone. Most of us are feeling a bit fed up and lost to varying degrees. I don’t really have any advice for you other than to say: take one day at a time and pat yourself in the back for everything you achieve throughout your day, because small victories are also victories specially when we feel like throwing the towel in. I am another Netflix series binge watcher of late and what can I say? I admit it unashamedly because it brings me respite from all the shit going on in my life and what should that be a negative? Do what you need to do to survive, to thrive. And if you feel like not doing a lot, that’s fine too. Big hug! Keep strong and keep doing what you are doing! M


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