I’ve been awake for a long time and it’s quiet in my house. The tree is lit as are my candles. I’ve had 3 cups of coffee already so that has to be the end of it. My boys are still asleep as they came home late from their dad’s family party.
I’ve gotten used to being alone on Christmas Eve since the ex left and the kids continued the ex’s family tradition of a Christmas Eve family dinner celebration. I’ve been grateful for many friends who take the time to check in on me so I don’t feel so alone. It’s worked and I now enjoy the quiet time and make sure I have plenty of snacks, a little wine and a nice dinner for myself. I wrap the gifts on Christmas Eve after the kids leave so that I can spread out and not be spied on! LOL. They like to peek at their gifts those silly little rascals!
The gifts are under the tree waiting for the kids to wake up. It’s not exactly a hard candy Christmas, but it’s a bit sparser than years prior. But it is what it is and they received presents from their dad’s family so I’m not worried. They’ve got plenty.
I offered the kids a little money in case they wanted to buy me something for Christmas. As in HINT HINT! The past few years they’ve been awesome, but I don’t think they’ve bought me anything for Christmas. And yes, it makes me sad. If it weren’t for a friend who sent me a gift, I would have nothing to open. I haven’t yet opened her gift because I want my kids to see that someone cared – and that they should have as well.
Of course, I’m ever hopeful, but I also know that they’ve probably not done anything. If they have, I will let you know. But I’m not saying anything. They’re smart and maybe they have a plan…who knows? The older one asked me to go shopping with him on Saturday so maybe they have a plan. I guess we’ll find out.
Anyway, I wish you a Merry Christmas and hope that you stay safe and healthy and happy. Holidays aren’t easy when you’re alone so I understand. Big hugs to all…