Christmas Day Is Here!

I’ve been awake for a long time and it’s quiet in my house. The tree is lit as are my candles. I’ve had 3 cups of coffee already so that has to be the end of it. My boys are still asleep as they came home late from their dad’s family party.

I’ve gotten used to being alone on Christmas Eve since the ex left and the kids continued the ex’s family tradition of a Christmas Eve family dinner celebration. I’ve been grateful for many friends who take the time to check in on me so I don’t feel so alone. It’s worked and I now enjoy the quiet time and make sure I have plenty of snacks, a little wine and a nice dinner for myself. I wrap the gifts on Christmas Eve after the kids leave so that I can spread out and not be spied on! LOL. They like to peek at their gifts those silly little rascals!

The gifts are under the tree waiting for the kids to wake up. It’s not exactly a hard candy Christmas, but it’s a bit sparser than years prior. But it is what it is and they received presents from their dad’s family so I’m not worried. They’ve got plenty.

I offered the kids a little money in case they wanted to buy me something for Christmas. As in HINT HINT! The past few years they’ve been awesome, but I don’t think they’ve bought me anything for Christmas. And yes, it makes me sad. If it weren’t for a friend who sent me a gift, I would have nothing to open. I haven’t yet opened her gift because I want my kids to see that someone cared – and that they should have as well.

Of course, I’m ever hopeful, but I also know that they’ve probably not done anything. If they have, I will let you know. But I’m not saying anything. They’re smart and maybe they have a plan…who knows? The older one asked me to go shopping with him on Saturday so maybe they have a plan. I guess we’ll find out.

Anyway, I wish you a Merry Christmas and hope that you stay safe and healthy and happy. Holidays aren’t easy when you’re alone so I understand. Big hugs to all…

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11 Responses to Christmas Day Is Here!

  1. petespringerauthor says:

    Merry Christmas, Janie. I hope you have a great day with your kids.


  2. Dwight Hyde says:

    Merry Christmas🤗


  3. Ainsobriety says:

    I was explicit with my kids this year – I wanted a gift.
    My parents sent me nothing and then called a couple of days ago to say, well we’ll just etransfer you some money. Buy yourself something.

    They do this every year and every year I get upset. I always send them gifts. I have told them many times that I am hurt they don’t take 5 minutes to buy anything. They don’t hear me…and make me feel ungrateful and greedy. I am not…I know I am hurting myself with my expectations.

    So. Kids got told and reminded more than once.. And I got a Toronto Raptors tee shirt and a home Made statue for my desk. Both the absolutely perfect. Clear expectations are necessary…even teenagers are self focused.

    Getting divorced really changes everything. I do everything. No one does for me. That’s ok…I mostly accept I am independent and very happy. But some days I just wish that people who are supposed to love me actually cared (parents, not kids.)

    Any way, tears wiped away and spine straightened. Life is full of beauty and I absolutely don’t need gifts to know I have love in my life. It come from everywhere, even here online.

    Merry Christmas and love to you from Alberta!
    Stillness and peace



    • janieleeds says:

      Anne, first off, I’m sending you hugs! And reminding you of how awesome you are…your wisdom shines through…
      I understand how you feel about your parents etc. This feels difficult especially when expectations are involved and when not reciprocated.
      Merry Christmas to you…stillness and peace. Yes…blessings all around.

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  4. LA says:

    Hope you had a wonderful day!


  5. scr4pl80 says:

    LOL After many years of getting “what was he thinking?” presents from my husband, now I get specific with a list, including pictures, the names of the stores and discount coupons if I have them. This year he got Covid so couldn’t shop. I bought myself a coat and sweater and gave them to him to wrap. Our kids, now that they are adults, are very thoughtful with their gifts, sometimes they buy us more than we buy them! Hope your day was happy. We won’t be able to have our Christmas until New Years Eve since we are waiting for the rest of our test results. So far 3 out of 4 are negative. We should get our son’s results back today.

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