Summer Is Here?!

I tried on bathing suits. I can’t even tell you how I feel about myself in them without a teensy curse so I won’t. Well, maybe it was a big curse, but I won’t repeat it.

There’s nothing like having been unmotivated for more than a year to make you want to disappear into nothingness and hide out forever. Really. That’s how I feel. Embarrassed. Feeling fat. Sad. Ashamed. General overall feeling of YUCK – yes YUCK with capitals. Add incredulous to the list too because how in the heck did I get like this? Oh wait, I know. Boredom. Stillness. Sheer Laziness. A glass of wine nightly chatting with my friend over the phone. It all adds up…and there’s nobody to blame but myself.

And blame’s not going to help me now. I know that so I am doing something about it. And I’m telling you so that I have a witness and maybe we can ever do this together? Anyone up to it?

I spent the last 30 minutes online buying some activewear because I bet what I was wearing when I was going to the gym pre-covid doesn’t fit. I didn’t even try it on. I just bought new because I’ve gotta start somewhere and I want to feel good. Step One. Check.

Step Two is I called up my trainer from the gym and asked for private training because I don’t want to go back in the gym. There’s too many people. So I’m starting Monday, twice a week in the park and she has everything I need. Let’s see how this goes. I’m hoping there won’t be anyone at the park and that it won’t be too hot out. But I have to get in shape. I can’t take this anymore and I know she’ll inspire me, support me, push me and help me.

Have any of you gone back to the gym? Is anyone feeling like me lately?

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30 Responses to Summer Is Here?!

  1. Congrats! You will feel better and this will help you mentally and emotionally. I started up again too with my routine and changed my eating habits … Good luck!

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  2. The V Pub says:

    I haven’t done anything remotely athletic. My energy is in yardwork right now, and the daily dog walk. But no weights, no running. 😦

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    • janieleeds says:

      Well at least you’re active Rob and that’s a huge plus. I haven’t been active in so long so this will be a push until I get acclimated. But I’m determined…no weights nor running for me either…wish I had a pup to walk though…

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  3. Beth W. says:

    Good for you!!! I use Noom and still have a little ways to go, but I’m making progress. 😊 Remember that the journey of a thousand miles begins with a small step. You can do it and will soon be fit and fabulous at fifty-something πŸ˜€β€πŸ˜€

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    • janieleeds says:

      Thanks Beth! You know I checked out Noom, but never clicked to join. Do you like it? I’d love to hear what you think about it if you don’t mind sharing your thoughts and reviews.
      Yes, that’s my prayer – fit, fabulous and 50ish! πŸ™‚ LOL

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      • Beth W. says:

        I really like Noom. I got down to my goal weight in 2019 and was maintaining it until Covid and life happened. Losing my Mom did a number on me and then later in the year when my ex started gaslighting me, I turned back to bad habits. I rejoined in December and am back down within about 10 lbs from my goal. It uses cognitive behavioral therapy and does it with about 10 minutes of short and snarky messages that make sense in a fun way. Food is red, yellow and green and you eat what you want within your calorie goal. Of course they offer suggestions for what to eat. “Noom nerds love grapes.” πŸ˜† I believe you get a free trial for maybe a week. If you’re considering it, I would say give it a try πŸ˜€ I have a link that lets you try it and gives me credit if you decide to stay. I will try to put it here. https://talkable.com/x/Zpv7CU If the doesn’t work, just download the app for Noom and I’m sure it will give you at least a week free trial 😁. You also get credit for exercise, but only half the calories you burn are added to your calorie total.

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      • janieleeds says:

        I wrote too soon on your other comment because ta-da! Here you are with all that I need to know! If I decide to do it, I will definitely use your link because I love it when people get credit!! Thank you for telling me about it as it doesn’t explain a lot when you do the questionnaire or at least I didn’t understand what it was about after filling out the questions. Good for you! Congrats on your success! Now I just have to decide if I’m going to do it or try to do it on my own. I will stay in touch! πŸ™‚

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      • Beth W. says:

        Janie, I have also used the My Fitness Pal app which is free and you can log exercise and food as well. Just no training and accountability. πŸ˜„. It might be a good starting point, though 😊 Whatever you do, I know you’ll succeed. The first step or deciding to take the first step is the biggest part! You can do it!! πŸŽ‰

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      • janieleeds says:

        Beth I think I have that on my phone already but I’ve never used it. I am going to check it out! I appreciate your support and will do my best! πŸ™‚ Thank you!!!

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      • Beth W. says:

        OK, the link will get you 14 days free plus 20% off if you decide to do it! Bonus! πŸ˜„

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      • janieleeds says:

        That’s a great offer! Thank you. Do you like it?

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  4. Dwight Hyde says:

    Good for you, Janie. Go slow and steady. You can do this! πŸ’―πŸ’ͺπŸ‘πŸ˜Š

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  5. Jonathan says:

    You’ve just reminded me I need to buy some new running shorts. I only have one decent pair…

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  6. petespringerauthor says:

    I’ve been back at my gym for three weeks. It’s not great fun working out in a mask, but it’s an extra layer of protection even though I’ve already been vaccinated. Sadly, my next-door neighbor passed from Covid a week ago. I remember him telling me at the start of the pandemic that it was all fake and that he would never get vaccinated. I feel so bad for his wife and twenty-year-old son. So tragic!

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    • janieleeds says:

      Oh Pete, that’s such sad news about your neighbor. I’m so sorry to hear this, but I agree that mask wearing at the gym even though you’re vaccinated is a good precaution to take. Stay healthy and safe.

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  7. bone&silver says:

    Good on you for taking action! Remember: nothing much will shift for 6 weeks, so mark that date on the calendar and don’t stop before then! πŸ’ͺ🏿πŸ’ͺ🏿 Slow & steady is the way βœ…

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  8. LA says:

    I didn’t rejoin the gym. We bought an exercise bike, and I’ve been using that but I need a better routine

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  9. scr4pl80 says:

    I hear you on the swimsuits and I need a new one too, although I don’t go anywhere to swim so maybe I don’t. I have gained back 17 pounds so I am recalculating my macros (calorie/fat/carb/protein) and fasting today to get a jump start. I don’t do the gym but I started my nightly planks again and am going to try some dancing videos. Let’s do this!

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