My neighbors are getting married today. It will be the first wedding I’ve attended in years, let alone as a divorced woman. Interestingly, it will be his 3rd and her 2nd (or maybe her 3rd as well – I’m not willing to ask that) as she has 3 kids from 2 different relationships before the upcoming nuptials. Not that I’m counting in a bad way. But I’m hoping 3rd time’s a charm because they both deserve happiness!
I find it inspiring that they’ve found each other. It brings me hope that maybe someday I can as well. Find someone I mean. Because, hey, you never know…
So I bought a new dress to go to the wedding. It’s blue so I figured I’d have something new and something blue on for luck…LOL I know I’m being silly. I even found an Essie polish in the cabinet which looks a little like periwinkle blue – it’s called As If – so I painted my toes. I figured it was a good omen that the color is called that because I’m going to attend as if I feel great about myself – you know – fake it till you make it? Or maybe face it till you make it?
But unfortunately I didn’t sleep well last night. The older kid went out with unreliable friends from college and didn’t answer texts nor calls so I was pretty sleepless wondering where the heck he was. Turns out he went to sleep at a friend’s house, but never told me. While we haven’t had ‘the talk’ today because I don’t feel like dealing with it right now, we will after I get home from the wedding. He did apologize, but there’s more to be said from me. I don’t need sleepless nights especially when I wanted to look my best today and that’s not really happening.
And yes, I could have fallen asleep and just trusted that he was fine. I know that. But once my brain began its worrying, it was hard to stop it for awhile. He hasn’t done this in a long time so let’s hope it’s a fluke because he won’t be living here much longer if this happens again. He can find his own place, keep his own hours and grow up.
I’ll let you know how the wedding goes…at least there’s something fun and different going on today in my life! I hope all of you have a great Sunday filled with fun too!