And She Was

I woke up with that song in my head this morning. You know the one? And She Was by Talking Heads so I thought it would make a good title for a post.

Have you ever been chatting with a friend and talking about someone whom you both knew (know) and how life has changed since we were (insert time) ie in college, in high school, etc. and the comment begins with and she was (insert characteristics)?

So I’m thinking what I would say about myself and what others would say about me to finish the line And she was as opposed to me now.

Here’s what I came up with – And she was:

happy, carefree and flirty, thin, willful, unafraid and joyful.

And now she now feels she is:

Tired, over 50, feeling fat, worried and soooo mentally exhausted sometimes when she doesn’t want to be, lonesome, responsible, forgotten and needs to remember who she once was!

The fact is that I DO remember that Janie as she was the ME I loved most. So now that I’ve told you about me, I have to do something about it. I’ve had enough of ’embracing life’s changes’ because I want that girl back. Or at least ignite her positively to help to transform and invigorate this older version of Janie.

Who’s with me?

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10 Responses to And She Was

  1. Dwight Hyde says:

    I saw that title and indeed that song came to mind. So The Ministry of Funness informed you are entitled to a Road Trip with a couple of your friends. Go forth and let your hair down! πŸ˜€βœŒοΈβ€οΈπŸŒΈ

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    • janieleeds says:

      Dwight I’m smiling from ear to ear! Thanks to the Ministry for the idea. Perhaps once this covid thing quiets down I will! At least I can let my hair down with friends now and get out locally for dinner! Hope all is well with you! πŸ˜€βœŒοΈβ€οΈπŸŒΈ

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  2. LA says:

    Always with you! We got this!

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  3. scr4pl80 says:

    OMG I so totally get this. I wrote a post about it myself a few years ago. https://asmile4ufromjanet.blogspot.com/2019/01/just-jot-it-january-2019-reflection.html
    Even went back to calling myself Janet after going by Jan for many, many years. You are definitely not alone!

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    • janieleeds says:

      Janet, I loved your post! I just went to it and I think you look beautiful in all of your photos! The rose definitely looks like the one in the saloon photo! πŸ™‚ How lovely!
      Thanks for sharing it…I wasn’t able to comment because I couldn’t figure out how quite honestly, but I wanted you to know that I read it! I like both Jan and Janet, but I think you have to feel like YOU in whatever name you choose. Being authentically us is the key to happiness nowadays! πŸ™‚ You’re awesome!! Big hugs!

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  4. OmniRunner says:

    I think a lot of us over 50 people feel that way. COVID just put an ! on it.
    Things were so much easier back in college but most of us are more confident and secure now.
    It’s always a good time for a change.

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