I know I’m super sensitive so that’s partly the reason for wanting to step out of it all. There’s so much going on lately behind the scenes in all parts of my life. I can’t really explain it to any one because I really don’t know how to tell it, so I don’t. I don’t speak of it.
I’ve spent the last week and a half sick. Like fever of over 100 sick, extreme tiredness sick, coughing what feels like my left lung up, stuffed up nose and head, congested lungs…I could go on and on. But after being rapid tested again for the second time, I’m still covid negative. I even had a chest X-ray which looked clear (although they scared me with a shadow). Whew.
I’ve been laying on the couch in my hot house with the air conditioner blasting watching Netflix and falling asleep to shows over and over. I can’t keep my eyes open, nor do I care to at all. Because I’m feeling done lately. Not like I’m going to off myself, but just done with everything. I’m tired of shouldering it all and so maybe getting so freaking sick is my body/mind giving me a way to just escape from the world and all the baloney.
Well, I’ll take it. But I’d love a side of air-conditioning that works, unless with all the sweating I’ve been doing, means that I’m losing weight. LOL