Silence Is Golden

I awoke on the couch this morning because I’m still super sick and my bedroom is just too hot to sleep in. It was so quiet this morning when I woke up, no air conditioning units humming, just the bird song from outside. And for a few minutes, I just laid there on the couch, taking in the golden silence.

Because I realized how silent I have been in my life. I thought I was taking the high road by staying silent and not speaking up. I was giving a golden gift to myself and to others by not telling them how hurt I was, but I think I was wrong. Not that there’s anything I can change now with it, but still. Probably good to know so I can evolve.

There are people I was really close to that now we really aren’t. More often it is happening to me and I see how relationships strain as we get further away from how close we once were. And while it was breaking my heart, I am working to try to find peace within because of it. We’re just on different levels of understanding, of life, of relationships, of lifestyles. And while it worked for many years, it doesn’t feel like it’s working now.

I’ve been quietly justifying the golden silence, not speaking up to how I feel because I know people are hurting lately so what reason do I have to say anything that might start to poke and prod them? Just allowing it to unfold however it may is how I justify the golden silence.

There’s a time and a place for everything and this surely isn’t either.

Have you been feeling this change in relationships as well?

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17 Responses to Silence Is Golden

  1. Letitgocoach says:

    Is it happening to you, or for you my darling?

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  2. LA says:

    I don’t have a great deal of friends….and those I consider friends I lock onto. I do have a bunch of acquaintances and hobby buddies…these ebb and flow.

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  3. Beth W. says:

    I think you have to be the authentic you that you are, Janie. I honestly do not have many friends, but the true friends understand us even when they may not agree with where we are on our journey at the moment. If friendships fade because you were open and honest, then that friendship was just meant to be for a season. Sometimes, though, people are reluctant to share what they are going through so they pull away instead. They may fade and come back. In the meantime know that you are amazing and an inspiration to many of us. Take time to heal and then come back to share. We will be here waiting for you. ❤😊❤

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  4. TJ Fox says:

    I can say that staying silent in an effort to avoid hurting other’s feelings isn’t always a good thing. In most cases it isn’t. Every time you swallow your feelings down and hold them in, it is like swallowing a mild poison. A few times won’t hurt you much, but over time, that poison builds up and can do a whole lot of damage.

    In a way, it is also a way of denying who you are and how you feel to those around you, a sort of putting on a face that isn’t exactly yours, and this may play a part in the dissonance you feel in some of your relationships. It throws you out of balance, so it is impossible to stay in balance with those around you.

    All of that is not to say that every single thought and feeling that breezes through you needs to be given voice. There is a time and a place for sharing. But being able to say “this is how I feel” or “this is who I am” helps you to feel more at home in your own skin and allows for more genuine interactions with everyone around you.

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    • janieleeds says:

      TJ, you are so wise and I appreciate you. I have been starting to speak up more often for those I care about and for the others, I am just releasing them. I seem to be losing touch with some friendships which is fine. We are all evolving. But you are right and I appreciate your advice. I did feel like I was drinking poison awhile back by staying silent. 💕

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      • TJ Fox says:

        The feeling of relief when you start to finally express all of that openly is indescribable. The peace that comes after all the stress and tension and strain of holding it all back? I will never go back to the way I was before, not for anyone.

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      • janieleeds says:

        That is what I am realizing and what’s coming to fruition here for me. Thanks for your kind support and sharing your wisdom TJ. I appreciate you.

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  5. The V Pub says:

    My experience in life has been that most people that I used to call friends are really acquaintances. I don’t go out looking for new friends, as I can get on quite nicely without them. Plus, friendship ought not to be such an effort. Silence is indeed golden.

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  6. ... says:

    I am a typical guy who doesn’t like to talk about feelings but I realize that I should. Of course all of my friends are no longer friends anymore so I know how you feel. Sometimes it is better to keep silent though, I guess you learn that as you get older.

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