Eerily Centered

I’ve got friends who are losing it lately. Too much stress in their jobs, in their lives and poof! they’re not able to cope. In fact, one went to the hospital the other day because she hadn’t slept in 3 nights, felt “delirious” and couldn’t remember anything in short-term. She called out of her job (which is in the mental health field) and is currently on ‘leave’ until next week. The hospital ER doctor called it excessive stress and fatigue and sent her home. Alone.

So her sister and I have been calling her and keeping each other in the loop. She’s divorced and her kids are independent so they don’t even know what’s going on with their mom. I don’t live nearby so it’s not like I can go check in on her or bring her some yummy chicken soup which always helps. Luckily her sister lives about an hour away and she’s been to see her (and take her to the hospital). But my friend was adamant that her sister not stay with her at her home when she was released.

I’ve heard of many people beginning to crash under what they’ve been through as many jobs have increased stress associated with them these days. I don’t know why though I’ve been spared and am eerily centered.

Eerily centered is that I am at peace and able to navigate others’ stressors. It started maybe a week ago when my computer just overheated (again) and the tech helper on the phone ERASED my computer without my knowledge nor consent. I could have lost it and lost precious peace time in my head. Instead, for whatever reason that I can’t even begin to figure out, I got mad for about 30 minutes and then made an appointment to buy a new one even though this one wasn’t even 2 years old and had already had problems in the past.

Fresh start. Let it go. Move on. Whatever it is, it is was what kept repeating in my head so I didn’t deal with the suffering of worry, I just trusted that there was nothing I could do and so be it.

And guess what? It worked! I got a new computer and whatever I’ve lost, I don’t care about now. There was a lot that transferred over to the new one from the cloud so that’s good.

I don’t know if anyone else is feeling eerily centered, but please let me know how you’re doing!

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15 Responses to Eerily Centered

  1. I describe it as being enveloped in cotton or a protective cloud, so yes, me too. Oddly but GRATEFULLY devoid of stress. This, I believe, is one of the last frontiers of surrendering to what is. I hope I’m not jinxing it by talking about it! Take care. So sorry about your computer. This brand isn’t supposed to do that. I still have my old one (a backup) from 2012 and it works fine. Def get an external hard drive to back up things the cloud might miss. That gave me peace of mind. In fact, I do have peace of mind. Namaste.

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  2. scr4pl80 says:

    We just had to replace all the pipes under our house. Eerily centered about the $20,000 it’s going to cost. Had to be done. Guaranteed for 25 years. 18 months at no interest to pay. What are you going to do?


    • janieleeds says:

      I’m sorry to hear this Janet. That’s way worse than my computer replacement. Ugh! But I love that you are eerily centered too…now let’s manifest the money coming to you under grace in perfect ways! 🙂

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  3. LA says:

    I just keep getting up in the morning

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  4. Beth W. says:

    Wow, Janie, good for you keeping it together during that. 🎉🎉🎉 I have found that after Mom’s death last year and the end of my marriage, I have kind of developed the serenity prayer mindset. If it is out of my control, I have to let it go. 🎈 That being said, I still have my freak out” moments, but find that they pass much more quickly these days. I hope the new computer continues to work perfectly for you! 😃 I hope there are no more moments anytime soon that require that eerie centerdness! 😄


    • janieleeds says:

      Thank you Beth. What a difficult year you’ve had (big hugs to you) and again, I’m so sorry about your Mom’s passing. Your serenity prayer is working wonderfully! I am so grateful we’ve connected and I look forward to sharing more centered stories with you! 🥰🤗❤️


    • hbsuefred says:

      “Whatever it is, it is”: another iteration of “It is what it is” and perhaps of the Serenity Prayer as well. May also be akin to Mindfulness (meditation) and all are pretty much coping mechanisms in which we each try to move ourselves away from the precipices to which we are often forced by events in our everyday lives.

      I am also currently struggling with similar events to what Beth and Janie have gone through. Check out my new blog if you want to find out what those are. I haven’t got much beyond describing how they were several months ago because they keep changing! Oh well, sigh.

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      • Beth W. says:

        So sorry to hear you are having similar struggles. Nobody should have to go through things like that. Thankfully there are others who have gone through it and come through, a little more battered but stronger for it 🙂 Blogging is a huge help for me! I love to hear from awesome people like Janie that inspire me to keep on keeping on! 🙂 ❤ 🙂

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      • janieleeds says:

        Big hugs to both of you! We are all here together on this life journey to help one another! I will stop over to see your blog today. Sorry I have been a bit out of touch…❤️❤️


      • janieleeds says:

        Thanks for sharing and I will pop over to read your blog today. You are not alone. We are all here together. Sending hugs.


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