September 11

The blue sky and occasional clouds outside my window remind me of the skies twenty years ago when tragedy struck. I can’t believe it’s been 20 years and how much life has changed for all of us since then. I look back on my life and my kids’ from that time and how things have changed so much since that fateful day. Then to think that it’s only been two decades and how much life changes over a lifetime and I’m still in wonder.

I am a little bit shell-shocked even twenty years later though I’ll admit. While I didn’t say anything to the kids, I was grateful that they were safe in my home and none of us had anywhere to go today. Well, I was supposed to go to a bridal shower, but once I saw the date it was planned for, I told them I wasn’t able to attend and sent a gift instead. I guess I’m sounding like a scaredy cat, but with so much going on, I’d rather be safe than sorry.

I knew people who passed on 9/11 and I watched how their families had a tough time picking up the pieces of their lives. On social media there were tons of tributes, 911 calls from those whose lives were lost (just before they passed) and so many photos from that day. It just makes me so sad even though I have little direct grief from it, it still can affect me. In years prior, I just said my prayers and went on with my day, but today felt different being the 20th anniversary. How in the world has 20 years passed in the blink of an eye?

And now with this virus, I have to wonder what the heck we will think when we look back in 20 years time (if we’re still here) about this era in our lives. Because this pandemic has wreaked havoc in a different way than 9/11. It’s separated us instead of uniting us. It’s encouraged us to split in so many different ways: politically, racially, vax vs unvax, masked vs unmasked, conspiratorially, and financially. People are suffering from the anxiety, the frustrations, the demands, the fear and they’re hurting. But we’re not banding together as a nation this time with this virus. We’re allowing ourselves to be pulled apart instead.

I felt like 9/11 dropped everyone’s differences and united us as a nation. People helped others, even strangers and volunteered when needed. Donations of time, help and energy were a priority as we were all hurting for those who lost their lives and those workers who tirelessly fought to find people as well as the families who were grieving. As a nation, we joined together.

I don’t have a crystal ball and even if I did, I’m not sure I’d want to know what’s coming in our future. I don’t mean to sound pessimistic, but there’s a ton of uncertainty out there and many are overwhelmed by it. I just keep trying to stay safe and healthy and keep the kids the same.

Thanks for reading. I’ll be fine tomorrow. But in the meantime, I think just being in my home and resting is best for me. I hope you’re having a restful day too. Stay healthy and safe!

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14 Responses to September 11

  1. I agree, lots of changes and anxiety this past year! Sometimes I think the news emphasizes the differences too much when in real life we all have so much in common.


  2. Parrotblog says:

    I can totally relate. 😭 Though I was a child at that time but still, it has affected everyone either directly or indirectly. Your mental health is the most important thing, so you need not to explain your stay at home or whatever you choose to do. As long as you feel okay doing something, go for it


    • janieleeds says:

      Thank you so much for your kind support. I spent the day at home and woke up this morning to the beautiful sunshine. My kids were young at the time (like you?) so they don’t really remember it for which I’m grateful. Onward and upward. Thanks for stopping by. I hope you have a lovely Sunday!

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  3. OmniRunner says:

    I was doing yard work yesterday and we were right under the flight path out of Logan Airport in Boston. Every once in a while I just stood up and watched those planes fly overhead.
    Sometimes it is difficult to be optimistic about our future. Our leaders squabble about points of order while many things appear to be going to hell in a hand basket. Thank you very much Senator, Congressman.
    When they other side is spending money to fix a problem, it’s always a waste of money. And often it is, such as tax giveaways to the wealthy.
    But we have come through global pandemics and 2 world wars and close calls that no one ever tells us about.
    I think we can make it.


    • janieleeds says:

      I agree. I think we can make it. I was just feeling a little sad yesterday about the state of what’s going on in our world and I probably don’t even have a clue about half of what is really going on. But today as promised, here I am. Ready to face a Sunday with crisp air and blue skies. Thank you for taking the time to comment and to be here. I hope you have a lovely Sunday.

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  4. Beth W. says:

    I totally understand where you are coming from Janie. That was such an awful day. Remembering it just makes you want to gather your loved ones near and keep them there.❀ I agree also that the current situation has seemed to divide us much more than unite us. I do wish we could go back to the united America of 9/12. πŸ’•. I think all we can do is to be tolerant of each other’s opinions and in so doing hopefully set an example that spreads 😊


  5. hbsuefred says:

    Started to write a nice long comment here that got wiped out when I probably hit the built in mouse on my laptop. IDK if it’s more trouble to navigate with or without it (on my touchscreen!) so I usually take the chance of having accidents like this happen!

    So, I may have some salient comments on this subject somewhere down the road. Meanwhile I wanted to let you know that I changed the link on my site identity (gravatar) from my old and at least temporarily closed web/blog site to my new one. Check it out when you can. If it goes like it’s supposed to, you’ll understand why I follow you!


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