I’ve rewritten this post a few times already, but I’m just going to hit send when this is done. I’m cranky today. Have you ever just felt cranky and want to enjoy it? LOL I know that probably sounds silly, but that’s how I’m feeling.
Hello my name is Janie and I’m cranky today. I don’t know exactly why I’m cranky, but I know that I am and somehow I deserve to be. It’s been a long time since I was this cranky and I’m frankly enjoying it. So don’t rain on my cranky day. I’m going to delight in it and stay over here in my corner of the world quietly. LOL hahaha
Have you ever felt this way? Like you’re just cranky and want to enjoy it? Allow it all to annoy you so you can get those feelings out once and for all? Or am I the only one who feels this way?
I don’t really like to be cranky, but every third blue moon I can feel this way. Like for some reason it’s ok for me to be uber cranky and if I’m going to be, then I want to enjoy it. Grouse about whatever petty silliness that I have to put up with and stomp my boots in annoyance at every prickly nuance. I told you, this happens so rarely that I just want to revel in it. Am I crazy?
I know better than to be around people when I feel this way which is nice too. A simple, I’m cranky suffices and people (read kids, dog) stay away and I get some peace and quiet in which to feel annoyed. Because you know my bark is worse than my bite so nobody wants to start me barking about all that’s wrong here at Chez Leeds. But since you didn’t ask, can I share a bit?
Money’s tight. Older kid still doesn’t have a job. Younger one’s child support ends in June and he’s only 1/2 done with university due to anxiety etc. issues. I nag, plead, guilt, encourage the older one to get a freakin’ job and I want/don’t want to throw down the gauntlet to tell him to either get out or get a job and give me money to live here. But that final straw in nearing steadily. I don’t understand him. Good kid, but afraid to fail at a job so doesn’t get one. I’m so frustrated I can’t even stand to hear myself rant about it anymore. They’re so annoying and so am I. LOL
Deadbeat Dad could be taken back to court, but last time he got away with non-payments and now I have to suffer getting repaid via garnishment at the minimum $35 a week when he owes thousands to me. That will take forever for me to be paid what is owed. Whoever said life was fair?
And, puppy had diarrhea, but thankfully he had it outside the house and not in his crate. I think that would have been the tipping point to my crankiness had he had an accident inside. Poor little thing, but he’s feeling better now.
I could keep going, but I won’t. I’ll shut up now and go back into my cranky corner. I hope you’re having a better Monday than me. Tomorrow is another day, so hopefully I get some sleep tonight and wake up bright and bushy-tailed in the morning with a smile. In the meantime, I’m going to enjoy my crankiness. haha