Saturday In The Park

This title just came to me and then I began singing that song…did it make you think of it too? Saturday In The Park by Chicago? Perhaps I’m showing my age…LOL Who’s kidding who? Of course, I’m showing my age…and I don’t mind it a bit!

I’m officially 55 now…”double nickels” as my father would have said. And I own it. It doesn’t bother me. In fact, I’m happy I’ve made it this far and I’m still here! While I’d prefer I didn’t have so many wrinkles on my face, each one of them was earned by time in the sun, laughing and sometimes feeling anxious. I look at these young kids now and think, ‘wear your SPF’ because I didn’t’. I liked the beach too much and being tan…and now it shows….ahhh youth….

The puppy is doing better after having had his neuter. He’s a bit more sedate and listens better. Or maybe it’s just that he’s getting used to the routine around here and what’s expected of him. Leave it or Drop it are not yet a part of his commands so we have to work on that more. But I’m doing better with him lately which is good. I just don’t think I was ready for the whole puppy thing after having had cats, they’re a whole different animal! Duh….silly me.

The kid had an interview so we’ll see if he gets the job. But it’s not a typical 9-5 because there are projects involved so he’ll have to stay late at times. Job’s 1.5 hrs away, but only requires being in the office 3x a week which is good. He hates the thought of commuting, so who knows. In the meantime, we’ve had some arguments but at the end of the day, I tell him that I love him and he tells me that he loves me.

However, he’s been a big trigger to me in the sense that he’s been showing those narcissistic traits his dad had. Side comments that aren’t nice. Gaslighting. Blaming me. Telling me what to do. Being angry about nothing. Not taking care of the dog or putting it on me when all he’s got going on is video games. It’s been a real roller coaster here. Not fun. But I feel like I am more centered and standing my ground. I pay the bills here and so if he doesn’t like being responsible in our home, then there’s the door. That’s where he’s gotten me. Although Anne did mention that she’s just trying to enjoy her son’s company (in last post comment) and I’m wondering if that is my next step to see if that will help him. Because the other day he stated that he didn’t think I liked him, that we don’t communicate and that he’ll leave and I’ll be a lonely old woman. I kept my tongue and he didn’t get a rise out of me. Because he knows I love him, but I don’t like how he’s treating me, nor how he’s not stepping up to grow up and take responsibility for his life. It’s a tough road to parent alone sometimes.

Anyway, I hope you sing along with the song below…enjoy! We’ve got sunshine here so that’s good since the weather’s been wacky lately. Have a great weekend!!

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13 Responses to Saturday In The Park

  1. The V Pub says:

    It’s a great song! I love classic rock.


  2. scr4pl80 says:

    Great song. We may go see them at the Winery this year. Raising kids is hard even when you have both parents. My husband and I disagree a lot about our adult kids who still live at home. I understand that it is tough to live on your own, especially around here and he thinks they should be able to move out. Don’t know what he thinks is going to change if they are not here.


    • janieleeds says:

      I agree with you about raising kids. It’s not for the faint of heart LOL I don’t know what your hubs thinks will change if your adult kids aren’t there. Perhaps you could ask him?

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      • scr4pl80 says:

        I have. He said he wants to turn one of the bedrooms into an office for me so I don’t have to work in the kitchen and the other room he would use as his sports room, with his baseball cards and collectibles. I think we’d never see each other – LOL plus, we’d be out the $$$ the kids pay in rent.

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  3. petespringerauthor says:

    I’m with you about embracing our age. What’s the big secret? It’s unfortunate that your son may be adapting some of your ex’s tendencies, but I suppose it’s understandable, given that is what he’s seen. It sounds like you’ve figured it out. Even for adult children, setting some ground rules is necessary at times.


  4. LA says:

    Great song. The kid…well you know parenting never ends


  5. Beth W. says:

    Awesome song! I love Chicago and they are playing here at the end of the month and we have tickets…yay!! Sending positive thoughts that all works out well with the potential job for your son. Kudos for holding your tongue when he was trying to get a rise out of you. I’ve got one that knows just how to push my buttons and I find that walking away is often the only thing I can do if I don’t want to start yelling. Of course, any reaction is an overreaction in his eyes, so staying calm (on the outside, anyway 😉 ) is the best thing. 😉 Glad to hear you’re adapting more easily to the puppy and that he is settling in. They are definitely a big change from cats and so much more needy!! Hope you have lots more sunshine in the days to come. I think we are finally having more warm days than cold, but am not TOO hopeful yet since tomorrow we may have snow. C’mon spring…..stay with us!! 😉


    • janieleeds says:

      How fun to go see Chicago Beth! Enjoy every second of it!! I can’t remember the last time I went to a concert, but Chicago should be a really good one! I am sorry you have one that knows how to push your buttons too…I am trying to stay non-reactive, but that doesn’t really work these days. Good for you though – so I’ll try harder myself! 😊
      Yes, puppy is better, slowing but surely. Perhaps he’s getting the hang of it here or I’m just too tired to fight with him too. LOL 🐾
      Did you get snow??? ❄️We’ve had terrible rains, but today the sun finally shone! I hope Spring stays with you!! 🌸


  6. Ainsobriety says:

    Lol. I like that you considered my comment.
    Coop and I had a blow out the other day as I felt he was ride and entitled and I was tired of being his chauffeur.
    It has helped. He recognized he was being unreasonable and expecting me to do way more than I should. He is almost 19.

    We will see how long this lasts.

    It’s hard when we see those same traits in our kids. Of course there will be some, the other parent was around part of their lives. And they also know how to lush our buttons. A lonely old woman? I don’t think so….that is manipulation!

    But like my yoga teacher says, if it wasn’t this,it would be something else, so you might as well deal with this.

    I am also happy to hear puppy is settling in. Milo is not super well trained….it’s easy to give a 5 pound mop a lot of leeway…but I will work on this too. We see the surgeon this week to see if he is a candidate for that. Sigh. 5 hour drive tomorrow!

    Stillness and peace


    • janieleeds says:

      Anne, I’m sorry that you’re having similar issues with your son. But I like what your yoga teacher said and will keep that in mind. It could be worse, for sure…

      I hope that Milo’s surgery is approved, that he heals and that it doesn’t cost too much for you. How upsetting. I will keep you all in my prayers for healing. Please let me know how it goes for dear Milo!

      Stillness and Peace to you too Anne!

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