Starting Over

I’ve started over many times. Heck everyday is a new start, isn’t it? So what’s different about how I’m feeling today?

Well, I’m decluttering the house. There’s nobody home so it’s just me and I’m on my own schedule. Eating when I want, doing what I want when I want. It’s kinda nice to be honest. Last night I couldn’t sleep well though. I was up past 3:30am even though I’d taken a few cat naps since 1030pm. So when I woke up at 8:45am, the sun was brightly shining and well, since I had no responsibilities to anyone but me, I smiled. Responsibilities (ie kids) return tomorrow afternoon from their first dad weekend in about 6 six years so I’m going to enjoy this fully free time.

I have the music playing loudly. Nobody’s here to know. I’ve been eating all sorts of foods at crazy hours. I feel like a teenager whose parents are out of town! LOL And I’m really liking it. I had lunch yesterday at 10:30am. I may just do that today too. Because there’s nobody here to keep me regimented to a schedule and with the wacky sleep hours, who cares? It’s temporary anyway. Monday begins real life but until then…its Janie time!

My heart is still messy though and I get racing heart palpitations sometimes when I’m not really doing anything so that’s concerning. So far I haven’t passed out though while the kids were gone which is good. That’s something I really don’t need to repeat especially if I’m alone in the house so I have only been walking a little bit inside because it’s summer here and too hot to do it outside alone. I am still too weak. And I don’t like it.

But it’s Sunday Funday for me and I’m determined to enjoy it. Heck, I may even make my lunch at 10:30am a chocolate ice cream…because I CAN! LOL

I hope your day goes great too! What are you up to? Make sure you take some ‘me time’ where you can.