Category Archives: addiction

Single Parenting College Kids With Anxiety

Posted on March 2, 2019 by janieleeds

I don’t know if it’s some planetary alignment or just plain exhaustion lately, but I’m tired. And yes, I slipped up so I need to get back on the quit wagon. But I did make it 10 days without smoking … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, divorce | Tagged anxiety, bad behavior, college kids, depression, ex-wife of a narcissist, kids and anxiety, patience, quit smoking, therapist, videogames | 21 Comments

Quit Day 6

Posted on February 20, 2019 by janieleeds

On Valentine’s Day, I began feeling sick with a cold. With each puff of the few cigarettes I chose to inhale, I felt that yuck. If you’re a cigarette smoker, you may know what I mean. The mind wants a … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, divorce, finding happiness at 50, love | Tagged cigarettes, cold turkey, emotions, ex-wife of a narcissist, lungs and grief, quit smoking, smoke free | 30 Comments

Why Do We Write?

Posted on October 8, 2018 by janieleeds

Excerpt from A Star Is Born – another poignant moment to share with you. “Look, talent comes everywhere, but having something to say, in a way to say it so people listen to it, that’s a whole other bag. Unless … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, finding happiness at 50, inspiration, love | Tagged A Star Is Born, being authentic, blogging, Bradley Cooper, encouragement, Lady Gaga, movie moments, music, truth, wordpress, writing | 4 Comments

I’m Now Seeing A Younger Man Once A Week…

Posted on October 4, 2018 by janieleeds

Did I get your attention? I’m laughing because for those of you who know me, you’re wondering what I’m up to and for those that maybe don’t know me, you’re thinking – cougar? LOL Cougar…in my dreams…more laughter…hmmm….nah…. But no. … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, finding happiness at 50, women 50 | Tagged advice, changes, cougar, dating after divorce, gym, hate to exercise, increase self-esteem, personal trainer, quit smoking | 15 Comments

Feeding Both Wolves

Posted on August 27, 2018 by janieleeds

I don’t know if you’ve heard the story about the wise grandfather who tells his grandson about the two wolves fighting inside each of us. While I’m shortening the parable so that I don’t bore you by being long-winded, the … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, divorce, finding happiness at 50, love | Tagged bad girl, crossfit, ex-wife of a narcissist, feed the good wolf, good girl syndrome, good vs bad, healing after divorce, quitting smoking, relationships, two wolves fighting, wolf parable | 4 Comments

Stop Suffering

Posted on August 12, 2018 by janieleeds

The root of suffering is attachment. – The Buddha I saw this quote today and felt like kicking myself. Not literally kicking myself mind you, but figuratively because I’m tired of suffering. I was attached, attached to the past for … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, divorce, finding happiness at 50, inspiration, love, women 50 | Tagged ex-wife of a narcissist, hindsight, let go of the past, painful memories, spiritual healing, the buddha, the root of suffering is attachment, you've come a long way baby | 4 Comments

Why Smoke?

Posted on August 7, 2018 by janieleeds

Well, so far, day 5 is going good. I’m still too stuffed up with this cold to smoke which helps tremendously. But I know that I am a work in progress in the whole quitting smoking arena. I think many … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, finding happiness at 50 | Tagged advice, breaking bad habits, cigarettes, guilt, health, quit smoking, relationships, shame, smoking after divorce | 4 Comments

Quit Day 4

Posted on August 6, 2018 by janieleeds

I didn’t plan on quitting. I know you’re supposed to do that countdown thing, but I woke up on Friday morning with the mother of all head colds and so I haven’t been able to even think about smoking. I’ve … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, divorce, finding happiness at 50, inspiration | Tagged bad habit, illness, looking on the bright side, nicotine, quit smoking, shameful secret, weightloss, withdrawal | 21 Comments

I Won’t Be Narc Bait Anymore

Posted on July 5, 2018 by janieleeds

I was raised by narcissistic parents in addition to a narc brother. Trained by the narcs, I am a people pleaser, a fixer and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I love deeply. I am an empath. I don’t … Continue reading →

Posted in addiction, divorce, finding happiness at 50, inspiration, love, women 50 | Tagged bad behavior, dating after divorce, empath, healing, narcissist abuse, narcissist relationship, NPD, wolf in sheep's clothing | 14 Comments